So today I woke up early. AGAIN!! And I can't help but think of you. I cant help it. It just happens that you are the first thought that comes to my head in the morning, which I don't mind. But the thoughts that follow after makes me cringe. Thoughts like, I will no longer be the girl you take home, or message/ call me when something good or bad happens in your life nor will I be  the girl that you think about morning noon and night. I know this might be sounding like a sob story and you might even say that I need to get a life. But how do i move on. This is not my first heart break, but it does feel like it. I've been through worse. But nothing can compare to the pain I'm feeling now. They say it takes half the time of the relationship to get over the person. So does this mean that I'm going to feel this way for one and half years. Then why r u ok. The thing is, you broke up with me knowing you won't have to see me for a month. Knowing that I'll be at home and you'll be in another country having a ball. I agree, I wasn't the perfect girlfriend. But I love you and I tried. I don't blame you for falling for someone else. But how could she do thos to me. She knew me, she knew us. You don't call me or text me anymore. But why do I still miss you, when you clearly don't. And why do i still feel like we can work things out? I dreamt about you again. But in my dreams despite us being together, I no longer trust you, therefore it doesn't work out. So does this mean deep down I'm accepting the truth that we  will never b together?

- Red