I remember our first date like it was yesterday. Well not yesterday. Maybe like a month ago. You wore a red t-shirt that had something in black written on it and you wore it with multi colored Billabong shorts. And we went to Mc Donald’s. No one knew that you and I went on this date and you slowly held my hand. We both ordered a chicken Mc deluxe, regular, mine was coke with ice and yours was a sprite without ice. I didn't finish eating my burger because it was messy and I didn't want to come across as greedy. I wish I could go back to that date. The 16th September 2011. Then the next day we went for our first movie Johnny English 2. We went with your friends. But we sat separately. I still remember feeling your arm and saying it’s very skinny. The next day you and I went clubbing together. We both dressed in black and that was when we first kissed. It was the best feeling on earth. Nothing else or no one else mattered at that moment.  We kept meeting in the roof top after that. That’s where you told me that you will only date me for a year and no more than that because you didn’t want to be tied down to me or any woman. Another time I remember you didn't want to hold hands with me because you didn't want to get married to me, I didn't understand how holding hands would lead to marriage. Maybe I should have known, I should have should have seen the signs. But things changed. One year became two years you told me you wanted me to be the one. Remember we planned to have 3 children (a boy, a girl and then another boy) and a dog, because I hate cats. 
I don’t remember what I wore on our first date. Maybe the truth is I didn't care about myself and it was all about you, I was insignificant and what mattered was you. You hardly came to meet me because you preferred to play games with your friends. But I didn’t mind spending time alone. I enjoy solidarity. But now that I am alone, I don’t know anymore. Was it me or was it you, maybe it was the both of us and maybe it didn’t work out because we were extremely different people. We didn’t have the same views on anything. I like to think I am opened minded. Then again I like to think a lot of things