Red:  I liked to think that I was a strong girl who could have survived without you or any man. My main goal in life was never to get married and have children. It was to grow up be successful, rich and happy. But that was before I fell in love with you. For some reason I let go of whom I was and became what you wanted me to become. And I agree I was happy. I opened up to you, told you my worst fears and all these silly ideas that came to my head. But 3 years down the line you let go of me and you moved on like it meant nothing to you. I mean how did you move on from a three year relationship in just 3 days? I guess it was a day for each year you spent with me. I thought what you and I had was a forever kinda thing. So I kept telling myself when things ended that it must have been my fault. So I tried becoming the girl you wanted me to be and when that wasn’t enough I begged and cried asking you to take me back. And the funny part was this was not how I normally am. If it was someone, I would tell them that whoever made you feel this insignificant and unloved isn’t worth your time to begin with and how you deserve so much more. But why can’t I tell myself that? Why do I cry every night? Why am I so hurt? Why do I still want you back? I mean you did start liking another girl in just 3 days after you dumped me. Like I said a day for every year right? The truth is now I hate you, but I don’t ever want you to go through what I’m going through, so I guess I still love you. But why? Why can’t heart break, break evenly? Why do I have to be the unhappy one when you are fine and falling in love with someone else as we speak?  Well I guess I loved you more than you loved me. But I don’t believe that. I still feel like you care and that you still love me. Maybe I’m wrong or maybe I’m right, but I can’t keep holding onto you thinking you’re going to come back to me. But how do I move on from you?