RED:

What’s the most terrifying part about being in a relationship or even starting one? I believe the most terrifying part is giving someone the opportunity to see you as who you are, taking off you mask, bringing down your walls and letting the other person to see your raw emotions, insecurities and vulnerabilities. The hardest part is once you've let this person in it gives them the chance to hurt you or break you.  I mean it’s absurd to think that there will be that person who will never hurt you, because the truth is that whoever you let into your life will hurt you. It can be a friend, a lover or even a family member, but you have to decide if they are worth it and if they deserve another chance.

Personally I find it so difficult to let a person in, and I get defensive whenever I feel attacked or if I face a situation I think I will end up getting hurt. I’m so good at building walls and making sure no one walks past them and are able to see the real me, the person I am when all the makeup comes off. I also hate letting people feel that I need them, because experience has taught me that people always leave. But is that true? Or am I just looking for a reason to be unhappy? I mean although a hand full of people has left me broken and hurt, there are so many people in my life that are there for me. These people have been my side despite me pushing them away. So then why do I constantly live in fear of letting people in? Is it because a few relationships have failed, that I convince myself that I don’t need them or is it me trying to protect my feelings because I feel like I can’t go through anything more?

The truth is that we are all scared no matter how successful we are or how much money we have. But the truth is there are people out there who are worth a shot and you should not stop yourself from fighting for them, and you have to give a person a reason to stay, because unlike in the movies, people have to be given a reason to have faith in one another and it has to be a two way street. However if you feel like you are the only one fighting then you have to learn to walk away. Not because the other person is a lost cause, but because we are all just human and there is only so much we can handle, but never end a relationship with a “what if”, because that what if will keep eating you alive. But how do you know when to quit? The truth is some people are harder to give up on than others. There are certain people who come to your life that you would do anything to keep. But does that mean that you have to keep hurting yourself, just to keep them in your life? The simple answer is no. If someone asked me that I would say they aren't worth it. But when it comes to the matters of the heart and you are in love, it’s harder to give up on that person. This doesn't make you a weak person or someone who doesn't know when to quit, it just makes you a person who looks for the best in another person. I want to end with a one of my favorite quotes, that I think is the perfect answer to all the questions I asked on this post, and the quote is;

“Relationships are like glass, sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than trying to hurt yourself putting it back together” –Unknown-

As blunt as this quotes sound, I believe it. There are certain relationships that have been broken beyond repair and trying to put them back together will only hurt you. However, there are also those relationships that are worth saving, and you just have to hope for the best during the tough times.